At the
end of 2011, I wrote and produced a guided meditation. It happened in a
matter of a month and perhaps by the grace of Jesus-Buddha-Allah-Krishna
and all other things Holy, I finished it and it was downloadable on my
website. It was very exciting and then I didn't know what to do with
it... I did the most passive aggressive thing... I couldn't truly move
forward with the marketing and getting it to a physical CD.
After
quietly sending it to all the good people who had pre-ordered it
digitally (for which I am deeply grateful. Thank you.), I moved on to
the next project. Truth was, I was scared. Even after receiving positive
feedback and testimonials, I was afraid that you wouldn't like it. I
was afraid of criticism and failure.Unconsciously convinced by the
little voice in my head that told me it wasn't good enough and that I
wasn't good enough.
I've
been meditating for years but I couldn't see myself as an expert. I
only had 2 guided meditation CDs I personally owned. So I did the Chopra
21 day meditation challenge, bought 5 other meditations, went to guided meditation
workshops and oneness blessings.
It
bothered me. Every few weeks, I would be reminded of this incomplete
project. Someone would ask or I would think about it and then feel
completely embarrassed. And none of the meditations got me anchored and
inspired as much as my lotus mudra meditation in a matter of 6 or 13.5
minutes.
I
did my meditation personally everyday because it really eased me. I
take myself out of it and imagine it is someone else to keep focused.
The more I did it, the more answers did show up for me, giving me peace
and courage to get the 1st production of the CD out. The first
production has some mistakes but the content is perfect. The other stuff
is easily revisable.
The
CDs arrived July 5th and seeing it in the physical form was the mental
bridge I need to cross over. Now standing on the other side, it is a
breathe of fresh air and new adventures await...
My point of telling you all of this is two fold:
1. Letting you know what this project is all about and how it can be what you have been seeking.
2.
If you have a project that you want to do but fear keeps getting in the
way, or have a project you've started but never launched.... Just do
it! It will be more painful not to do it, because thinking about it
will eat at you and consume an enormous amount of energy.
